02 October 2008

This is about how I feel today.

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” --Neil Gaiman

I know I haven't written in a long time, but honestly my life's been a roller coaster lately...in more ways than one. I think I epic failed last night, but whatever.

On an up note, my favourite author is coming to Boulder on Tuesday and I'm going to go buy a copy of his new book for my birthday (which is on Monday, in case you're wondering). In addition, I'm going to the Pink Spiders in Denver on Friday with Carrie. The weekend will definitely be better than the week, methinks. ^-^

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